Shattering the noise. Cracking the ice-cover. Thawing the frost. Opening my heart again.
It's been a particularly shadowy part of the mosaic, a deep and dark-ish time to wade through. There has been, through it all, immense joy and relief, and peace in the chaos, but overall, it's been hellish.
Yet still, God is faithful. He upholds. He sustains. He has given me the most incredible gift of love. His love, and the love He created for us to pursue.
My eating disorder still invades my mind sometimes, creates a hardened shell around every wise thought, so I cannot think. Yet that has become more rare. I'd average maybe 2-4 times per month. Which is far better, I'd say, than last summer!
So I'm working on it, just like all of us. And I'm grateful to everyone. And I'm processing, I'm learning, I'm growing - we all are.
Let's journey on.
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